I sound like a broken record
Wednesday, January 4th, 2012An entire wrap of my Christmas might be kind of boring to you since all my pictures were taken with my Droid because I have a dead semi Sony camera sitting in my nightstand that broke well before its warranty expired but I neglected to do anything about it & now the warranty is up & there it still sits dead. I think I’m hoping for a super crafty tutorial to pop on Pinterest to fix it. Until than its Droid camera photos.
Christmas was Christmas. It took me the entire month of December to actually get into the Christmas spirit. But when I’m sending my son to school in shorts its kind of hard to get all wishful over winter wonderland, gingerbread & misletoe.
We did have a nice Christmas. But it was again, Christmas.
New Years Eve seemed to rock a little harder. We spent the night jamming out to a horrible 80′s cover band at City Walk where I had the most delicious Jamba Juice & ran into FIVE different people from the past year who I’d like to push into a bus. Luckily a quick disappearance into the crowd of 25,000 made it impossible for them to see us *I think* but boy did I see them & some red.
But now 2011 is over & its time to set my eyes & my heart towards goals that I will only half-heartedly attempt.
I try not to make many loud declarations of resolutions because I don’t keep them & they usually are something like “Lose weight” & that just ends in tears in a pool of Chipotle. *Last year I set no personal goals for myself but I did have 2 pages of blogging goals but I don’t know how many I accomplished because my hard drive to my old computer is still sitting unattached to my newer but less cool HP. But I can tell you from memory I reached at least 3 of those. One of which included being featured and/or syndicated on BlogHer no less than 5 times…& on the 29th of December BlogHer didn’t let me down. Make sure you check that one out.
I’m still fleshing out what my blog goals for 2012 will be. But I did sort of think of what I really want to work on this year personally & that is to be more deliberate in life. Now I saw someone tweet that last week & I was like “What the hell does that mean? It seems so vague.” but I started thinking about it today & for me its going to mean more focused on finishing things. Steady. Focused.
You don’t know me IRL & I know you probably think I’m totes perfect but the truth is I’m not. At. All. One of my biggest flaws is that I’m a procrastinator & my procrastination can turn into dis-organization & laziness. I used to think I was very organized & in some ways I am very organized. I know where everything is & I don’t have to spend hours looking for stuff, but stuff is still un-organized & there is just crap every where.
And when I finally decide its time to get shit together it takes forever & a whole day of planning to do it, then I take tiny little breaks that I call “sensory breaks” to play Angry Birds & than get up & do it again. Laundry sits for days unfolded, mail piles up, appointments don’t get made, vitamins forgotten, & I hate that.
So for 2012 I need everything to have a home again, I need to be a better manager of my time, I need to make decisions & not second guess them. Live focused, live steadily. I won’t start laundry unless I know I will & can finish it the same day. When I move in March it won’t take my 7 months to decide on a lamp. I will have proper menu & mail storage instead of thrown into a a United States Postal box because the drawer broke & no one can be bothered to fix it.
*Also I realize that this problem is worse than I thought…my resolution last year was exactly the same. So I guess I really should work on this & also, take some Ginkgo biloba.
